Of Childhood, Naim & Things In The Past

Naim, my primary school friend gave me a few ideas on what to write. So, here's the first one. Dedicated to you and read it carefully. I'm not what I used to be. Hahaha

When I was younger, the only subject that 'cacat'kan my report card is Pendidikan Islam. I did not study anything at all but I would always get great results (not bragging here). My teachers would always praise me. When I think about it, I feel weird and I'm so blessed. I was the 'clever' student & I don't really give a damn about anything else around me. I was the annoying, attention-seeking student. I knew that some boys had a crush on me but I was a happy child I don't think of boys or anything else. I was so happy with my life. Some envy me and I was every teachers' pet. I was living the high life. I swear to God, since Perlis is so small, sometimes, I bump into people (older people,the makciks and pakciks) and they all knew me. Since I was young, I don't bother to ask who they are anyway. And one of my paternal aunties used to tell me how her neighbours talked about how excellent I was.

If I tell my friends now how I used to be, they won't believe me. I am now the most passive girl. I am so shy I'll burn myself in public. Sometimes, I don't feel like meeting my childhood friends because I don't want them to view me differently. That is what we called 'growing up' & for me, it sucks. Now, I listen to people instead of people listening to me. Now, I follow what people want me to be instead of doing things my own way. Now, I'm scared that I hurt people's feelings all the time instead of just go for what I think is right.

Anyway Naim, you were adorable. You are the little few people I can still remember (yeah, I was a brat). You were once this tiny creature, running around and I still remember that you were fair. Haha. Putih sangat. Oh, and you were very talkative =p And now, you are my closest primary school friend. You have a huge heart. Thanks for helping me when I need your help. Trust me, I'll try my best to help you if you ever need one. One day, I would love to have coffee with you but please don't have high expectations of me. I'm such a boring person now. I'm not like I used to be.