New Year. New Life. New Me.

Good morning dear me. =)

So, here's the thing. I am now officially a working woman. I am no longer someone that depends on her mama for money. Oh, I still do until my 'gaji masuk'. MASYUUKK!!

I noticed some things have changed in me. 

1. I cannot wait to turn 24.

2. I am more calm and at ease.

3. I began to love my hair being long. I start to play with my hair and admiring it being longer than I usually keep.

4. I feel I am more matured. 

5. I used to feel like I cannot live alone but now I feel I can. Kalau Allah dh plan aku xkawen, I'm goin to be just thankful and fine with that (I have my kids that I began to collect now. Hee).

6. I began to like being with my family now that I am working. I no longer want to live anywhere other than my own home. I don't want to be away from my mother. I want to spend my entire nights with her.

So, how's life as a teacher?

-When I am with my kids, (though showing a very stern face), I am at my happiest. Especially when I see them smiling trying to answer my questions, when they make a very puzzled face when they don't understand what I've just said.

-I love to see their big black eyes and their stomach bulging forward when they are excited =p

-The school uses whiteboard which I prefer much much more than a blackboard.

-The downside is, I have a new set of kids that I began to miss my Pykett Methodist kids so much it is eating me inside.

What remains the same?

-I am pretty much clueless in everything.

-I am still mama's spoiled brat girl.

-I miss Penang and my friends. When we first registered at maktab, me and my friends have one thing in common. We are new there and we don't know anything. Now, at school, I have nothing in common with the teachers that we can be close except that we are teachers.

-I miss Penang. Oh, I've said that.

-I miss Pykett Methodist.

Oh, I forget to mention. From a very small school (SK Pykett Methodist, Georgetown Penang) to a very big school that looks more like a college than a primary school (SK Kantan Permai, Kajang Selangor).

To my friends, I pray that we can get through this with grace. Dan semoga kita ikhlas mengajar sampai pencen memanggil kita (Or death. Which ever comes first). Please pray for each other too.

A STEP TOO BIG

This 16th will be a new beginning for me.

What will my life be like after this?

TAKUT!

Wedding Fever

IF ever I wanna get married, who would I want to be my pengapit/maid of honour?

*Who would I share this most important day of my life with?

*Who would I call giggling telling that I wanna get married and I would love her to be my maid of honour?

*Who would I just instantly think about, pick up the phone and tell her the news?

I have 2 people in mind right now

1. This person is the person I know would not make me tensed up on the big day. This person would make me laugh out loud on my big day. She would make my pictures look horrible as I would just be laughing with her. She would be there as my friend for life. 

BUT: She doesn't even talk to me now. I'll try my best shot asking her one day.

2. This person has helped me a lot and I think asking her to be my maid of honour will flatter her. I would show everyone that she's the best friend anyone could ever get. I would be honoured if she can be beside me during my big day.

BUT: It'll take her almost one whole day to be a bridesmaid and she would have to do it for the groom's side too. She helped me so much, I feel terrible for troubling her more.

Tapi nak kawen tu xtau la bila =p

Dalwinder Kaur

This is gonna be short & sweet.

You've written a post with my name as the title so now it's my turn.

I hate saying thank you because what you did, deserve more than just a thank you. I can never ever repay you for all the times I need your help, for the encouragement you've given me. For all the moral support, they lift me up. No one has ever really cared about me other than my family. You gave so much without ever expecting anything back.

When you called today and sounded more excited than I am, I'm touched. Really. You've made my day. Thanks for supporting me. Thanks for believing in me more than I believe in myself =)

I'm the type of person who takes small silly pictures and keep them forever but my old laptop betrayed me several times I've lost many pictures of you and us. This is the only pic that I manage to find and Puvi has to be there la. Hehe. This is one of those wild nights. Hee..

We've come a long way since then huh? I would do it all over again if I'm given the chance.

Ok, I love you so much babe. Thanks!

P.S: So much for a short post. =_='

In A 'Weng' State

I was writing this one entry and my language has gone haywire. Decided to stop and just make it a draft before polishing it back one day. So I viewed my drafts and there is a post where I was being the typical me. I was 22 and afraid to turn 23 in a couple of months and I was cursing. 

Hahahahaha..

Wow, time quickly flies. I've grown I think and I'm glad =) Owh, this time, I cannot wait to be 24 because my 23 sucks big time and I feel that this year is a good year.

Hey, this year, I have already written a few. I'm so proud of myself! Haha.

Of Childhood, Naim & Things In The Past

Naim, my primary school friend gave me a few ideas on what to write. So, here's the first one. Dedicated to you and read it carefully. I'm not what I used to be. Hahaha

When I was younger, the only subject that 'cacat'kan my report card is Pendidikan Islam. I did not study anything at all but I would always get great results (not bragging here). My teachers would always praise me. When I think about it, I feel weird and I'm so blessed. I was the 'clever' student & I don't really give a damn about anything else around me. I was the annoying, attention-seeking student. I knew that some boys had a crush on me but I was a happy child I don't think of boys or anything else. I was so happy with my life. Some envy me and I was every teachers' pet. I was living the high life. I swear to God, since Perlis is so small, sometimes, I bump into people (older people,the makciks and pakciks) and they all knew me. Since I was young, I don't bother to ask who they are anyway. And one of my paternal aunties used to tell me how her neighbours talked about how excellent I was.

If I tell my friends now how I used to be, they won't believe me. I am now the most passive girl. I am so shy I'll burn myself in public. Sometimes, I don't feel like meeting my childhood friends because I don't want them to view me differently. That is what we called 'growing up' & for me, it sucks. Now, I listen to people instead of people listening to me. Now, I follow what people want me to be instead of doing things my own way. Now, I'm scared that I hurt people's feelings all the time instead of just go for what I think is right.

Anyway Naim, you were adorable. You are the little few people I can still remember (yeah, I was a brat). You were once this tiny creature, running around and I still remember that you were fair. Haha. Putih sangat. Oh, and you were very talkative =p And now, you are my closest primary school friend. You have a huge heart. Thanks for helping me when I need your help. Trust me, I'll try my best to help you if you ever need one. One day, I would love to have coffee with you but please don't have high expectations of me. I'm such a boring person now. I'm not like I used to be.

2012

I want to write at times but I don't have any topics. Please leave some suggestions if you have some.

Yesterday, I went to one of my dear friends' wedding. We went to the same secondary school; SMK Telok Mas. It was a new school, we were the second batch. Bayangkan senior kitorg form 5 (we were in form 4) hanya 9 org.

And here are some pictures of us. I cannot believe that we used to have flings here and there during the 2 years we studied there. That was the time la. Hahaha

The blue-shirt guy is Mat Gan. Dulu mata putih dia merah spnjg masa sbb tu org pggl dia Mat Gan. Dia pendiam klu dlm kelas tp seyes bergeliga otak. Tetiba semua A. Jenis manusia yg aku suka, pendiam tp berisi. Aku punya respect sama dia! Kwn kitorg yg pengantin perempuan tu.. Dia antara sedikit yg masih panggil aku adik lg. Congrats Ida. I love u so much and I'll pray that you're happy with your new journey in life =)

Ni Diana. Sorg2nya budak aku yg sama Dorm 4. Dia cantik. Aku xpayah tgk dia berulang kali utk ckp dia cantik sbb dia trsgt cantik.. Kacuk cina dia ni. N aku rasa pelik gila skrg pggl dia Diana sbb roommate aku pun nama Diana. Jd rsa janggal gila.

And here we are again kt JJ Melaka yg baru buka. Yg baju hijau tu Aiman. Dia dh tunang dh dgn budak kitorg jgk yg tudung hijau tu, Ana. Kecik kn dunia ni. Dulu sama2 pengawas perpustakaan,skrg dh jd tunang dh. Yg paling hujung tu Hazwani. Dia ketua murid dulu. Dia yg mnyebabkan aku kantoi brmasalah kt asrama dulu. Haha. Citer lama dh pun =p Yg sebelah aku tu org pggl dia Pensel sbb dia batang je okay. Sgt kurus. Bila jumpa dia skrg, terasa mcm dgn Remy tp aku lebih rapat dgn dia drpd Remy kut. Remy mnakutkan bg aku. Dlu ada brskandal jap dgn Pensel ni. Lawak gila bila pikir balik.

Rasa mcm baru semalam sakit2 badan ikut peraturan sekolah tu, kena rotan dgn Ustazah Halijah yg sgt garang, kena marah teruk setiap hari dgn Cikgu Zaleha, kantoi dgn warden, Cikgu Adnan sbb menyorok bawah meja guru sbb ponteng klas tmbahan Add Math, kantoi dgn Mama sbb  langgar peraturan asrama, mnjadi ngada2 tnpa ada tanggungjawab sbb junior sume mnjaga kakak senior dia ni yg xguna. Haha. I miss my juniors too. Bila keluar dri sekolah tu, aku trus kna urus diri sndiri. Xbest betul

I'm too old for that stuff now. Penat rasa. Hehe..

 

And that was all from 2003 & 2004. It is now 2012. I hope I've changed for the better along the way. I love SMKTM especially that it is this place that Allah has given me the chance to know my baby sis that I love so much. I do. I love her and how I would stopped the world for her.

* Anyway, happy 2012 everyone =) I can sense that this year is a good one!